Childish Gambino reveals fears in new open letter

Prepping his new album for release, actor-come-rapper Donald Glover – aka Childish Gambino – has entered his name into the open letter game by posting a series of notes to Instagram.

Recently titling his upcoming LP Because The Internet, Glover took to the social network site to express a number of worries and fears: ranging from those business and music-related (“The label doesn’t want me to release in December because it’s not a holiday record”) to the more personal (“I’ve seen a bunch of people die this year”). It gets very personal, indeed.

Here’s a transcription of the letter, via CoS:

I’m afraid of the future
I’m afraid my parents won’t live long enough to see my kids
I’m afraid my show will fail
I’m scared my girl will get pregnant at not the exact time we want
I’m scared I’ll never reach my potential
I’m afraid she’s still in love w/ that dude

I feel like I’m letting everyone down
I’m afraid people hate who I really am
I’m afraid I hate who I really am
I’m scared people will find out what I masturbate to
I’m afraid I’m here for nothing
I feel that this will feel pretentious

I’m scared I’ll never grow out of bro rape
I’m afraid people think I hate my race
I’m afraid people think I hate women
I hate people can say anything
I hate caring what people think
I’m afraid there’s someone better for you
Or me

I’m afraid this is all an accident
I’m scared I’ll be Tyrese
I’m afraid Dan Harmon hates me
I’m scared I won’t know anything ever again
I’m scared I never knew anything
I’m afraid I’ll regret this
I’m afraid this doesn’t matter at all

I didn’t leave Community to rap
I don’t wanna rap
I wanted to be on my own
I’ve been sick this year
I’ve seen a bunch of people die this year
This is the first time I’ve felt helpless
But I’m not on that
Kept looking for something to be in with
Follow someone’s blueprint. But you have to be on your own

The label doesn’t want me to release in December because it’s not a holiday record and I’m not a big artist. I started the record last christmas. Christmas always made me feel lonely, but it helped me restart the new year. I want people to this album when everythings closed. When everything slows down and quiet. So you can start over

I got really lost last year. But I can’t be lonely tho. Cause we’re all here
We’re all stuck here.
I wanted to make something that says, no matter how bad you fuck up, or mistakes you’ve made during the year, your life, your eternity. You’re always allowed to be better. You’re always allowed to grow up. If you want

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