jasmine.4.t unveils debut album focus track, "Guy Fawkes Tesco Dissociation"

"A few years ago, I was sleeping on my best friend Han’s living room floor in Manchester for a few nights. I had come out as trans to my closest people back home in Bristol, my life had fallen apart, my marriage had ended terribly, and I had nowhere to stay. I was struggling with extreme PTSD symptoms and making plans to kill myself. I remember being in Han’s bathtub, crying in the dark and her making me promise not to go through with it," jasmine.4.t says of the new track.

After a traumatising experience on Guy Fawkes night, jasmine.4.t started Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing (EMDR) therapy.

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"I wrote Guy Fawkes Tesco Dissociation about the experience at the supermarket, and my divorce that was in progress. The second verse imagines a me in a brighter future, looking back at myself," she continues. "I demoed it with two guitar tracks and two vocal tracks on a four-track cassette recorder. I panned the tracks so that one guitar and vocal was on the left and one guitar and vocal was on the right. The vocal tracks sang alternate lines. This gave the impression of my voice going back and forth, left and right, mirroring the bilateral stimulation techniques of EMDR therapy.

"It feels so much to be writing this now, in the next chapter I imagined in the second verse. I cried writing this when I remembered the line 'find connection next to true self, something larger than my life', because I am in the brighter future that I could never have foreseen from where I was when I wrote it. I want this story to bring hope to anyone going through what I went through."